Monday, August 12, 2002
For the first time since I have been back from vacation, I am actually bored. I have been working my ass off at this job for nearly a week straight and haven't had a free second to do anything fun.
But today...that all changed. I finally caught up. So now I am looking for things to do, websites to read, games to play...
I decided to go back on these diet pills I have. They aren't really diet pills exactly. More like metabolism increasers. I bought them last year, had a rough bout with them and gave them up. Okay, I only used them for two days. But I spent good money on them and I do believe they will work. And don't give me any of that..."Don't do it Joe. It's unhealthy to use these type of pills..."
Cuz I am using them. The end.
I have yet to be hungry today, which is a good thing. After eating a HUGE lunch at the Neptune yesterday, I proceeded to eat a full sandwich 3 hours later, a gigantor bowl of pasta two hours after that, and I capped off this glutton filled day with about a half bag of candy. Man, it felt good to be alive.
And it felt good to have a shit load the size of Kansas this morning. :-D
Sending out sympathy cards for the two girls who lost their grandmas over the last week. It's so hard to write anything substantial in cards like that. I mean, I am usually good with words in cards, but with these...
It brings back too many memories. Memories which I am still not ready to confront head-on.
Tonight and tomorrow night will be filled with the tons of shit I need to do. Time to update my acting resume, write a slammin cover letter, and then get some pictures out to as many people as I can possibly think of. Wow. Should probably start memorizing some monologues too. I got a couple still floating around in this head of mine. But none that are ready to be presented.
One night before I left for vacation, Mariah and I were sitting on her roof drinking wine and she asked me to do something for her. Give her any sort of acting presentation that I could.
So, I gave her a short, and totally random few lines from One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest. Although it was nowhere near the caliber of what I have to offer as an actor, it felt good to get that rush again. I love the look of incredulity on people's faces when they realize that "Shit, he really can act. He's not just pretending."
Very few of the people that are involved in my inner circle right now have not seen me do anything, so it will be quite a shock for them when they realize who the real Joe Cuttheshit is. I am telling you...it's not the guy in this journal, that's fo sho.
My mom has been offered this new job making 100K. She is not sure if she is going to take it yet, but if she does, she and my dad will move to (the very bottom) of upper class. At least, as far as I am concerned. Not that that is a huge deal, but for a family that started out great, fell into bankruptcy, and had to work their way back from nothing...this is surely a big deal to all of us.
I am incredibly proud of her.
And it has the potential at being a job that she would totally love. Not that she doesn't totally love the job she has now.
Some good things going on, I guess.
My brother is out in the field for two weeks, so won't be able to converse with him in any way, but email during that time.
That sucks. Never want to talk to him when he's here, but you make it impossible for me to talk to him, and I about die inside.
Finally...work is over in about 40 minutes.
Gonna go do something relaxing for that time. I gots work to do when I get home.
Paul has called three times today and I have ignored every call, letting the phone mail take it.
Just can't do it right now.
But today...that all changed. I finally caught up. So now I am looking for things to do, websites to read, games to play...
I decided to go back on these diet pills I have. They aren't really diet pills exactly. More like metabolism increasers. I bought them last year, had a rough bout with them and gave them up. Okay, I only used them for two days. But I spent good money on them and I do believe they will work. And don't give me any of that..."Don't do it Joe. It's unhealthy to use these type of pills..."
Cuz I am using them. The end.
I have yet to be hungry today, which is a good thing. After eating a HUGE lunch at the Neptune yesterday, I proceeded to eat a full sandwich 3 hours later, a gigantor bowl of pasta two hours after that, and I capped off this glutton filled day with about a half bag of candy. Man, it felt good to be alive.
And it felt good to have a shit load the size of Kansas this morning. :-D
Sending out sympathy cards for the two girls who lost their grandmas over the last week. It's so hard to write anything substantial in cards like that. I mean, I am usually good with words in cards, but with these...
It brings back too many memories. Memories which I am still not ready to confront head-on.
Tonight and tomorrow night will be filled with the tons of shit I need to do. Time to update my acting resume, write a slammin cover letter, and then get some pictures out to as many people as I can possibly think of. Wow. Should probably start memorizing some monologues too. I got a couple still floating around in this head of mine. But none that are ready to be presented.
One night before I left for vacation, Mariah and I were sitting on her roof drinking wine and she asked me to do something for her. Give her any sort of acting presentation that I could.
So, I gave her a short, and totally random few lines from One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest. Although it was nowhere near the caliber of what I have to offer as an actor, it felt good to get that rush again. I love the look of incredulity on people's faces when they realize that "Shit, he really can act. He's not just pretending."
Very few of the people that are involved in my inner circle right now have not seen me do anything, so it will be quite a shock for them when they realize who the real Joe Cuttheshit is. I am telling you...it's not the guy in this journal, that's fo sho.
My mom has been offered this new job making 100K. She is not sure if she is going to take it yet, but if she does, she and my dad will move to (the very bottom) of upper class. At least, as far as I am concerned. Not that that is a huge deal, but for a family that started out great, fell into bankruptcy, and had to work their way back from nothing...this is surely a big deal to all of us.
I am incredibly proud of her.
And it has the potential at being a job that she would totally love. Not that she doesn't totally love the job she has now.
Some good things going on, I guess.
My brother is out in the field for two weeks, so won't be able to converse with him in any way, but email during that time.
That sucks. Never want to talk to him when he's here, but you make it impossible for me to talk to him, and I about die inside.
Finally...work is over in about 40 minutes.
Gonna go do something relaxing for that time. I gots work to do when I get home.
Paul has called three times today and I have ignored every call, letting the phone mail take it.
Just can't do it right now.
